| There's only so much one person can say.
It seems that no matter what I say, no one understands. They just assume to understand and know what I think or how I feel.
I'm still trying to prove to everyone that I'm different and I think differently, but they keep trying to throw me into a mold of what to expect.
Maybe it's this mentality of "the average" expectation which has plagued me my whole life.
I still can not accept that there is nothing left to salvage. Friendship should transcend something like this.
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| This whole semester i've had this feeling. A feeling of the soul. Where everything seems closer, more real, yet my soul is winding up, instead of down. Prepping itself for the inevitable bounce at the end of this coming year. A tightness within the soul, that yearns for release but cannot be appeased.
No matter how hard or long i try to hold back, the zamboni of time just continues to glide on smoothing out the memories.
They say that college is the best and most exciting time of your life. And it's hard to disagree at this point. Sometimes i must admit that there is mind-numbing sameness which assaults the senses. But this is just as easily diffused by the spontaneity of trips and dips.
Post college looks to be exciting and a time of change, as long as the horns are grabbed and the bull is ridden out.
So until next time... just keep on winding winding. (not swimming swimming) |
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| So i'm back for a little bit. Seeing if this script works.
*edit*
Darn, it didn't. I'll post a real post tonight.
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| I'll be back soon, promise, as soon as all this stuff is finished. |
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| Ahaha, wow, it's been so long since i last plastered my thoughts upon
the electronic wall of xanga. So here i am, dusting off my paintbrushes
and spray paints galore, ready to attempt and dazzle myself with
whatever flows.
So where have I been? I've been on a long trek to who knows where,
during who knows when, looking for who knows what. This year started
off with a phone call, and seems to be ending with a smile. Pink Koalas
and gummy bears are taking the place of work. But then again, Trenton
High School is a pretty cool place to chill during the mornings. Waking
up at 7 never felt quite so good as this year.
This summer I traveled through fire and flame, and maybe now i'm
finally seeing the truth in the warmth. Good times in the rain,
reminiscing of bikes and falls. Being a Cancer even though i'm a
Pisces. Dancing to a fobby song. Dancing to an american song. Finding
that I can laugh again.
Living with room-mates again. Learning how not to cook. Shop Rite isn't
for sissies. finding the worst times to eat the best foods. Finding the
best times to eat the worst foods :) Learning how much time i really
have in a day. Living two time zones at a time. Discovering a love for
teaching. Teaching a love for discovery! So much on the brain with so
little time, yet so little on the brian most of the time (doesn't mean
it's important).
Finally working again.
Ok, so i admit that this blog didn't totally make sense for a lot of
you guys out there. But then again, these were my thoughts, and I'll
look back and remember these things warmly. Have an awesome day y'all!
And enjoy the sunshine 
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